31 12 / 2016
2016
2016 has been an exceptionally tough year. I thought 2014 was tough but I was so wrong. 2016 was full of challenges. Every month something pops up and I just had to deal with it. Despite all of it, I’ve learned that family will always be your rock; your backbone; your support system. Even with all the arguments and the fights, family members will always forgive one another. I’ve learned that blessings come in the same package as hurt, sadness and anger. There will always be something to be grateful about even when you’re going through a tough time. One of the things that I’m grateful about this year was definitely my Ramadhan blessing. Really.
2017 will be unexpected. I don’t know where life will take me from here on. I hope that I have the strengths needed for 2017 and that I will continuously strive to be a better person each day.
26 12 / 2016
Today I got to my theory class a little late, as did most of us. and my professor sat down and asked, “Why are you guys here? Where do you want to be after you get your masters, where should i look for you in 5 years? What’s your dream?”
And is started out as a fun little exercise as a few people answered and shared that they wanted to be teachers or open up their own studios or be a conductor. But then Dr. Olander slowly went around the room and asked every single person to share. And each person’s eyes lit up and they smiled and they spoke softly about what lead them to this school and what they wanted to do with their degree, what their interests are and how they wanted to use their degree to help others or spread music or make a difference.
Every person. 15+ people. It took nearly the whole class period. And Dr. Olander finished and said she was just curious and didn’t mean to take up the whole class talking about that, but she thought it was good to stop sometimes and remember why you’re here, where you’re going, who you are and what your dreams are.
I started crying in the middle of class bc it had been so long since i had stopped to remember why i love music and why i want a masters and how badly i want to use it to change people’s lives with music the way mine was.
So stop for a second. Don’t think about how much you’ve practiced this week, or your grades or your classes or scholarships or jobs or anything. Really stop. Stop and ask yourself,
Why am I here? Where do i want to be in 5 years? Why do I love this? What is my dream?
Remember who you are. Stop and dust your dreams off, and remember.
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10 9 / 2016
"You can’t make people stay. I want someone who chooses me."
13 8 / 2016
please be nice, please please be nice, there’s enough evil shit in this world we don’t need more toxicity and hatred. please just treat people kindly.
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13 8 / 2016
"People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that’s bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they’re afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they’re wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It’s all in how you carry it. That’s what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you’re letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain. — Jim Morrison"
13 8 / 2016
30 7 / 2016
"I hope there are days when you fall in love with being alive."
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30 7 / 2016
"Many times people have hurt me and left me disappointed. All of these events were very long ago and don’t matter anymore in a general sense, yet something still hurts inside when I think of them."
21 12 / 2015
"If you hesitate between me and another person, don’t choose me."
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